In order to move

away from the bullshitty last post,
im gonna steal carte's survey.





Are you ready for some questions that you barely find in other surveys?
sure

Has the last person you texted ever been mad at you before?
yeah

Have you ever searched for your own house on Google Earth?
yup. saw it too.

Do any of your top friends have a tongue ring?
No

Do any of your top friends have a nose ring?
Me.

When will be the next time you text someone?
Whenever megan replies

How much money did you spend today?
None. Pockets are hungry

What will you be doing tomorrow?
Going on a hot date to the avenue to get ice cream.
I do not want to.
I only want to go on hot dates with tino.


Have you ever cried while in the shower?
wth no..

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
yes lol

How do you feel about your hair right now?
i wanna dye it.

Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend?
yes


Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
not personally.

Last person you talked on the phone with?
Tassel

Who do you blame for your bad mood today?
Annoying people.

What are you looking forward to right now?
Getting a new job

Do you miss someone?
sure

If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
nah mann

What did you do today?
nothing. it'a 9am

Have you ever done anything illegal?
yup


Where will you be 5 hours from now?
Jazmines birthday thing

Today did you hug a person you have feelings for?
no

Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
Dear. God. Yes.


Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Last person= roger? kayla?
both yes.

Do you want any children?
2 boys.

What was the last thing you really laughed about?
uhh. dont remeber

Last 3 people to send a comment on myspace to you?
roger.roger.roger.

Is there something you're happy about at the moment?
sure. but i ust cant remeber at the moment

What were you doing at 8 this morning?
awake.

How many piercings do you have?
7

Do you want someone dead?
nope

How old do you look?
?

Have you seen any of the Saw movies?
all

What are you looking forward to next weekend?
new pussy.
lol idk


Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
Ahhhh. No lol

What are you listening to right now?
DOM. the mixtape that i cannot download.

Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?
Yeah.

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
No

When is your b-day?
April

Do you like movie nights?
no. im not patient enough for movies.

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
whatever me and tino were talkin bout.

Whats your first thought when you woke up this morning?
wtf is megan talkin bout

Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?
school. It's just not for me.

Who was the last person you went out to eat with?
rakediz

How are you feeling right now?
tired. annoyed. anxious


Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
yeah

Do you have an older brother?
six

Whats on your bed?
covers

Where was the last place you went besides your house?
hot date

Are you an emotional person?
no

Any regrets in the past week?
hell no.

Is there someone you used to talk to every single day that you don't talk to anymore?
old pussy


Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?
no

Who was the last person's voice you heard?
dom

Tell me about the shirt you are wearing?
it's black. it has obama on it. it's a medium. so. it's too big

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
no

Who was the last person you sat on the couch with?
dont matter

What is bothering you right now?
alot

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
no

Have you fell asleep in someone's arms?
i dont like to be held lmao

Last movie you watched?
dun remember

Where is your phone?
on charge

What color are your eyes?
light brown

Who has the same phone as you?
plenty.

"I Never Gave A Fuck

I never gave a fuck about what niggas thought about me. I mean i did, but fuck it. Ya know?"

I wanna teach my kids. I wanna teach my kid sister. I wanna teach my baby sister. That it is OKAY. To be yourself even if it is a little different. it sounds cliche but it's tru and i cant stress it enough. YOU should be the only person to matter to YOU. I wanna let my little sister know because i know i give her trouble all the time and she's just a kid. She fights me off well but i feel guilty because she reminds me of myself when i was younger. And i know how she feels even though she acts like that shit doesn't matter. I know how it's gonna catch up with her later and what it's gonna do when it does. I always catch myself harrassing her and emotionally just destroying her. And im like "Wait. Isn't this the reason im fucked up now? Didnt i let kids in school do this to me? Aren't i still emotionally and mentally traumatized from this?" I can only pray she's stronger than me..

School was not fun for me.
To say the very least.
It was a very isolated and lonely time.
And kids are mean.
Vicious.
To me.
They were anyway.

And it's weird to think how they always made me feel like there was something wrong with me. So i always thought there was. But i always thought it would be so much harder to try and fit in. If im cool, im cool. If im not, im me. Im not gonna be good at being you because that's not who i was made to be.

"My mind is all hazy, hazy, hazy, hazy...
I be thinkin that I'm wrong,
Cuz they used to call me lame, lame, lame, lame...
My swag was a little different
But then my mind is hazy, hazy, hazy, hazy...
I be thinkin that I'm wrong,
But they the ones who lame, lame, lame, lame...
I got the last laugh nigga"

Sometimes it's still hard.
The main point of all this:
Love your kids. Your sisters. Your sons. Your friends. Love them but teach them to love themselves.

Listen while you observe :D!







and

DUB ZER0

Scream My Name..

Oh Jimmy!








Pow.

Madd Old

Im not a J0ey fan, per se, but the shit he wrote was kinda ill.
Charles is good but nobody likes a nappy nigga.
Check That.

Hide and Go Beat

Lol. I still feel kinda shitty. Just jumpy now. Uhm. Im rethinking my summer plans. Im unemployed. Very broke. and very halfway songle. I was very drunk and very into white guys for 12 hours. Hahahahahahaha. Luke. Great kisser. He's fuckin like..not my type though. Just a good kisser. I feel like i could throw up everywhre. Gross. i got jerkin downnnn son. Fuck all that reject shit. I need somethin/someone to do this summer. Im fuckin bored as shit


I HAVE A LITTLE BROTHER! HE LIVES WITH ME!
CONGRATULATIONS!! IT'S A BOY!!!!

On? Off? Switch.

I am at kayla's house and ive managed to fuck up soooo much in a matter of 12 hours.

Marcel is fuckin livid again.
Ed feels stupid cos i basically ditched him.
[actually ed always does this shit. we ask him to come or tell him a certain time to come and he just doesnt give a fuck and shows up whenever. but i kind of had good reason cos i really didnt want him to see me like that. He has before i mean. idk. Just didnt.]

Well.
LAter.
Speaking of, Celly leaves for cali on Saturday.
Damn here it goes again. You guessed it. There's goes another boyfriend.

Stray

Too my bittersweet realization, my father is getting a new job.
To many, this is great. "what's wrong wit you girl?? We in a recession. He need to make that money."

To me, my job flies out the window.

Yeah thats great and all. He's working. Money comes.
We're happy. We love each other. Im a spoiled
piece-of-shit-child again.

Only one car. No job. No need for licence. No reason to leave
the place i hate. Walls are closin on me. Everyone's had the
feeling. I am being smothered by the predictable. I need a vacation.

And so-forth.















While wading in my self-pity and selfishness, i forgot to congratulate you.


Way-to-go.

Je le veux

Cute.
Not the girl.



hahahaha, i was watchin FG and stewie saw the family comin home and he was like

"Oh, Lois! Fat man! Chris! Dog! Brian!"

hahaha. I didn't get it at first but then i nearly died.
Poor, Meg. lmao.

Get Back to What Matters

School is officially [almost] out. Good thing too. Cos i had [almost] gave up. Single. In a sense. So im gonna go through this summer and just keep workin. Keep tryna get my car. Keep trying to make descent friends cos so far...Haha. They're not all bad! Just flaky. Not made outta much. i need em

Valentino Tassle Lee

I dont know what's gonna happen with us.

We are at two different parts of our lives.

Too different.

I cant knock you though,

You're grown.

Too grown to be doing anything other than this.

As for me...

Well.

J'adore Noir.

Really. I do. He is beautifully talented. Love his voice. Sounds like Q-Tip. Only Normal. lol. Figure it's bout that time i get a new job. Havent been too serious about it but now im ready to cop summer gear. Ugh. i hate this part.











I wish there was a holiday or somethin near-by so someone could just buy this shit for me.


Im not a spoiled kid anymore.

Phone Stolen

R.I.P
Ice Chocolate.

08-2008---05-2009

:'[

Fear

What are you scared of.
Why cant you ever stand up for me?
Are you ashamed of me.
Do you love her?
That thirsty bitch.
YOu can love ehr but know it will never be
the love m and you had.
You can love thousands of other girls.
Just knoow i was the only one that mattered.
We were supposed to be 'it'.
Get a grip.
I cant just defens myself.
especially when im not around.
if you love mmeb you wouldnt let er talk
about me like that.
Whats even worsse you probably laugh too. I dont care
that seh's talkin shit. i dont care what she saying.
I care that you DONT.
Im ya girl. For now. Please. Appreciate it.
Defend it. Want it.

I know i love you. I know i've never loved anything the way i love you.
I donteven know what you call it..

Fuck THIS

I Dont trust him.
I Dont respect him.
I Dont believe him.
I miss him.
I love him.

I cant live my life this way...

It's Somethin Bout This Boy

Even If he showed up in this with a straight face i would still totally jump his bones.

One Two Tres

Sexy ass Men
One

Two

Tres





:(! Whyyyyyyy

Sexy Ass Women
One

Two

Tres
(As much as i dislike this dumb brawd]

(More] Piff + Boo Boo Mid

Shit wasn't as good as i was secretly hoping.

This was that shit. Strait cracc. But Blu always is :]

Didn't go to school today. Absences out the ass. Truency on the way. Drop-out followin close behind. Only one year left of this shit. Then im off. To wherever. I've decided im not going west anymore. Well, for now. I listened to City of Los(t) Angel(e)s and it just kinda gave me an epiphany type thing. Like shit is bad everywhere. I hate it here. Nothing good happens. But they're prolly sayin the same shit over there. Idk. I just feel lost. Now i dont have anything to look forward to. Sure it'll be fun for the first few months. But after that....Same shit.

Something bout a day like this makes me wanna raise my fists and say "Rise n shine. it's time to face the world".

DAT PIFF

Downloadin new music. Well attemptin to at least. Yesterday was hecktic and very irritating. But it was alright. Ack like you chillin. If you got beatz mann turrrrn it up. And if you got weed man burrrn it up!!

Lemonade

I like Jahleel. He has a girlfriend of a year. I have a boyfriend of not-as-long. He's soothing. Like a tall glass of lemonade when it's burnin' hot on summer days
But he's not quite it. He's not my Valentino. He never will be. None of these niggas are. Even if Tino does break up with me because of my recklessness, i will always love him. He's everything i've ever wanted in my life. My best friend. My everything. Kinda like the feelin' after your first kiss. Except that everyday he makes me feel like this. He's exactly what I need.

(Terrible photo btw]
He shoud really just have all the confidence in the world when it comes to me and him. I will never leave him for someone other boy or girl or thing. Hahaha. He will see. Hopefully. 1 week and counting...