How Many Things Have You Lived Through?

bold the things you’ve done

i have read a lot of books.
i have been on some sort of varsity team.
i have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
i have been to canada.
i have been to europe.
i have watched cartoons for hours.
i have tripped up the stairs.
i have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
i have been snowboarding/skiing.
i have played ping pong.
i swam in the ocean.
i have been on a whale watch.
i have seen fireworks.
i have seen a shooting star.
i have seen a meteor shower.
i have almost drowned.
i have been so embarrassed i wanted to disappear.
i have listened to one cd over & over & over again.
i have had stitches.
i have had frostbite.
i have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
i have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.
i currently have a job.
i have been ice skating.
i have been rollerblading.
i have fallen flat on my face.
i have tripped over my own two feet.
i have been in a fist fight.
i have played video games for more than 3 hours straight.
i have watched the power rangers.
i attend church regularly.
i have played truth or dare.
i have already had my 16th birthday.
i have already had my 17th birthday.
i’ve called someone stupid.
i’ve been in a verbal argument.
i’ve cried in school.
i’ve played basketball on a team.
i’ve played baseball on a team.
i’ve played football on a team.
i’ve played soccer on a team.
i’ve done cheerleading on a team.
i’ve played softball on a team.
i’ve played volleyball on a team.
i’ve played tennis on a team.
i’ve been on a track or cross country team.
i’ve been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
i’ve bungee jumped.
i’ve climbed a rock wall.
i’ve lost more than $20.
i’ve called myself an idiot.
i’ve called someone else an idiot.
i’ve cried myself to sleep.
i’ve had (or have) pets.
i’ve owned a spice girls cd.
i’ve owned a britney spears cd.
i’ve owned an *n sync cd.
i’ve owned a backstreet boys cd.
i’ve mooned someone.
i have sworn at someone of authority before.
i’ve been in the newspaper.
i’ve been on tv.
i’ve been to hawaii.
i’ve eaten sushi.
i’ve been on the other side of a waterfall.
i’ve watched all of the lord of the rings movies.
i’ve watched all the harry potter movies.
i’ve watched all of the rocky movies.
i’ve watched the 3 stooges.
i’ve watched “newlyweds” nick & jessica.
i’ve watched looney tunes.
i’ve been stuffed into a locker/i have stuffed others into lockers.
i’ve been called a geek.
i’ve studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
i’ve not studied at all for a test and aced it.
i’ve hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
i’ve hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
i’ve met a celebrity/music artist.
i’ve written poetry.
i’ve been arrested.
i’ve been attracted to someone much older than me.
i’ve been tickled till i’ve cried.
i’ve tickled someone else until they cried.
i’ve had/have siblings.
i’ve been to a rock concert.
i’ve listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
i’ve been in a play.
i’ve been picked last in gym class.
i’ve been picked first in gym class.
i’ve been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
i’ve cried in front of my friends.
i’ve read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
i’ve played halo 2.
i’ve freaked out over a sports game.
i’ve been to alaska.
i’ve been to china.
i’ve been to spain.
i’ve been to japan.
i’ve had a fight with someone on aim. (msn)
i’ve had a fight with someone face-to-face.
i’ve had serious conversations using im.
i’ve forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
i’ve been forgiven.
i’ve screamed at a scary movie.
i’ve cried at a chick flick.
i’ve watched a lot of action movies.
i’ve screamed at the top of my lungs.
i’ve been to a rap concert.
i’ve been to a hip hop concert.
i’ve lived in more than 2 houses.
i’ve driven on the highway/been on the highway.
i’ve driven more than 400 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 400 miles in a day
i’ve been in a car accident.
i’ve done drugs.
i’ve been homesick.
i’ve thrown up.
i’ve puked on someone.
i’ve been horseback riding.
i’ve filled out more than 10 myspace surveys.
i’ve spoken my mind in public.
i’ve proven someone wrong.
i’ve been proven wrong by someone.
i’ve broken a leg.
i’ve broken an arm.
i’ve fallen off a swing.
i’ve swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight
i’ve watched winnie the pooh movies.
i’ve forgotten my backpack when i’ve gone to school.
i’ve lost my backpack.
i’ve come close to dying.
i’ve seen someone die.
i’ve known someone who has died.
i’ve wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
i’ve done modeling.
i’ve forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
i’ve taken something/someone for granted.
i’ve realized how good my life is.
i’ve counted my blessings.
i’ve made fun of a classmate.
i’ve been asked out by someone and i said no.
i’ve slapped someone in the face.
i’ve been skateboarding.
i’ve been backstabbed by someone i thought was a friend.
i’ve lied to someone to their face.
i’ve told a little white lie.
i’ve taken a day off from school just so i don’t go insane.
i’ve fainted.
i’ve had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not
i’ve pushed someone into a pool.
i’ve been pushed into a pool.
i’ve been/are in love

Deadmarch: Sylvia Plath effect

"The Sylvia Plath effect is a term coined by psychologist James C. Kaufman in 2001 to refer to the phenomenon that creative writers are more susceptible to mental illness than other people. Kaufman’s work demonstrated that female poets were more likely to suffer from mental illness than any other class of writers. This finding has been discussed in many international newspapers, including the New York Times. The finding is consistent with other psychological research studies.

The effect is named after the American poet Sylvia Plath, who committed suicide when she was thirty years old."

6 things I wish i could say

1.You've remained a friend to me but i think thats only because you dont know how to be by yourself. I appreciate you and all, but it is imperative you learn to stand up for yourself, sir.

2. Im hardly attracted to anyone physically, but cotdamn do you make my mind turn into a private screening of custom-made xxx's. Is it gettin' hot in here?

3.YOU are a great friend. And you are loyal. These things are important to me and you are important to me. We've had hilarious not-sober times but also fun staying clean(8 and you never judge. ever.

4.You've always been my best friend. Since I was eight years old. I know this, and you know this. There are only so many ways I can say it lol. I love you.

5. You're a phony and you're a coward. I cant believe I used to look up to you. And I guess you could try and say the same about me, but the only difference is I would actually say this to your face.

6. Thank God for your impeccable timing. At times I sit back and just think like "How the fuck did i get blessed with a guy like this?" because honestly, I havent done anything in my life to deserve someone like you.

!!

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Pretty Eyes & Laughter

Sometimes i miss the fuck out of everyone and it kills me. Really. I feel like i'm all alone and the only people whom i gave the stories of my past, ran with it. I just dont want to miss anyone else. I'm starting to feel like i'll never have another bestfriend. I know i will be settling if anyone else called me their best friend. Kayla is NOT Meg, Chris is NOT Mia, and Jazmin damn sure is NOT Danielle. And while i have other people that i consider my best friends, i dont have enough makeshift bfflz to compare them to. *Sigh*

But what's so wrong with being alone? Alone's the only way i've ever known.