It Does Have a Point

im just scared to say it.

Le Gasp!

I've been trying to fix my blog and make it somewhat appealing but obviously, thats still a work in progress. In the midst of all that commotion, I nearly forgot to tell you about the new heart-related intrests in my life. Now, i've never really posted anything about my personal views on love or anything because i keep a hand-written journal for things like this. So here is a little something you can work with:



I've been in love once in my life and it was fucking great. There are no flaws in love, only people. That being said, when time came to let things go, neither my partner or I would do so. We just kept stringing along back and forth trying to salvage what was left of our teenage romance when, in turn, we destroying everything we had been given. Couples fall out of love all the time, however, this realization is rare.

This is a recent revelation but, yes, I DO believe in love at first sight. I personally believe anyone can fall in love with anyone given enough time. My ex and I would have never in a million years been together if we had the choice. Not that we were forced on each other, but we were around each othher ALL THE FUCKING TIME. Rode the same bus, same school, same neighborhood, same friends, same no car lol. Just learned to tolerate and see the good in each other.

With that, I loved him so purely and so hard. But I still doubt to this day he could ever loved me like that.

See, thats the tricky thing about love. You have to love someone, but they have to love you too. It's different type of love though; soulmates. This type of love is so much greater and lasts well not forever because surely, nothing can last forever, but in perspective, you know what i mean.

Im rambling now and this shit doesnt even have a point. Fuck this.

What's Not to Love About Him

Pretty awesome love

I feel like I bother everyone.
I should just stop making the effort to communicate with “friends”.

Fuck friends.

Im Embarrassed as Fuck

Funny shit though.
Still sad.

And I swore I'd do this

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

Ive had about all i can take

Of this stay at home shit. I cant work, i cant go to school, but i can clearly go mad trapped in this house forfuckcingever. To bring you all up to speed, my parents have decided that the only way to get me into college is to back me into a corner and tell me i can not work until i apply and get accepted into a school as well as apply for any gotdamn grant/scholorship ever made. Now, dont get me wrong, i see what they're trying to do and it's definitely not all bad. I'm just the type of person who moves oppositely to the direction i'm being pushed. Could be because i'm immature, could be because i'm a Taurus. It's no secret which possible answer i'm gunning for.


Job apps, here i come.

We're Running Out of Film Here.

I've been second guessing myself alot. Could be because i'm in a current mid-life transition. Could be because i'm dangerously lonely. Could be my period, emotions and things of that sort. Ya know, girl problems. Either way, CUT THE SHIT JESSICA-LYNNE.

Take two.

Fight Club

I feel like destroying something. Doesn't even have to be beautiful. Just anything at all. I wanna wrap my hands around it, crush any form of life out of it, then dip off into my own universe.





That is all.